next chapter i think

Assalamualaikum,

Firstly, Alhamdulilah sebab sy dah grad, convocation dh selesai, dan both my sister selamat lahirkan baby boy, abah bg gelaran kat nephews upin ipin, yelah lahir pon jarak 11 hari jer, bleh dikatakan kembar la jgk, nk upload gmbar diorg tak cukup 40 hari lg

Secondly, sy nk mula bukak buku baru, a new chapter of my life which is sambung master. Nak cakap happy tu memangla happy, tapi takut pon ade sbb master lg besar scope keje kalau nk compare dgn fyp plus dr. sufia mmg expectation dia tinggi which is good but still nak tampung expectation dia tu sgtla berat, tp xpela i'll try my best ;)

sy harap sy kuat nak hadapi apa pon yg akan terjadi, hopefully i can do well and finish my master as soon as possible so sy bleh start keje, then tolong ma abah, tolong adik2 insyaAllah

p/s: ma pesan, kite ni sebagai seorg anak jangan berjanji ngan mak ayah kalau kita tak pasti, kalau kite tak tunaikan, hidup kite tak berkat,  jadikan pengajaran ape yang berlaku depan mata, ambik iktibar, satu lagi janganla berkira dan nk ungkit2 ape yg kite buat kat parent, ape yg kite buat tuk diorg tu kecik jer kalau nk dibanding kan dengan ape yg diorg buat tuk kite selama ni :')

mimpi itu indah

assalamualaikum,

mimpi mmg indah,
i always imagine something like this:

rumah warna putih dekat ngan laut
then, rumah tu ade veranda yg luas,
veranda tu pulak mengadap pantai n laut yg biru,
dekat veranda tu ade meja kecik n krusi,
dekat ctu tmpat kite rehat,
smbil minum teh/kopi,pandang laut n hirup udara segar
sambil dengar bunyi ombak, bau laut,
tenang......
nice isnt it,
and beside us, there is someone,
this person that u want the spend the rest of ur life with him/her
and with this person we want share everything,
and sometimes we look at each other and smile,
no word can describe this and all i can say this is happiness :)


psst: fatihah giler sbb dia nk kena hbskan 16 chapter (slide), dgr no 16 rasa mengantuk dan berat mata

No Words for you

assalamualaikum buat kwn2 semua,


lepas baca entry blog syakini, rasa nk balas balik ape yang syakini tulis
nah surat tuk korang:

sy tau kite dh tak banyak nak spend masa sama-sama,
kite berkwn bukan setahun dua, its almost 4 years,
susah senang kite kongsi sama-sama,
saya rasa kalo xde korang, sy rasa sy xmampu nk hbskan 4 tahun ni,
mybe half way jer,
sy ingat lg bile pointer sy bwh dua, serius sy nak putus asa,
tapi disebabkan korang selalu ade, so i think, why should i give up
bile dalam bilik sorang2 sy selalu menangis,
tp bile spend masa ngan korang, sy cam dapat satu kekuatan yg buat sy teruskan,
korang tau tak korang adalah orang yg paling penting dalam hidup sy lepas ma n abah
more than my own siblings..
.
sy byk kongsi masalah ngan korang yg sy xleh nk ceta kat family sy,
sy ni boleh dikategorikan pendiam jgk la dlm family,
sy susah nk cite kalo sy ade problem,
kalo boleh sy nk tunjuk kat family, im fine im alright im happy, ceria selalu,
tp bile ngan korg senang jer mulut ni nk ceta, nk menangis

ingat lg time korg dtg bilik mcm genster tuh haha,
epic revenge,
tak penah2 dlm hidup sy ade org pi serbu bilik nk balas dendam
lepas sy menangis sbb rumate sy yg psiko tu,
sbb korang dia xdak dah buat pelik,
xsentuh dah barang2 sy, haha

after all this year, now here we are, final year dah
tima kasih pada awk, awk, awk, and awk, sebb jadi satu sebab tuk sy lebih kuat
sy tau bile kadang2 tu kite sebut ayat2 yg cheezy, sy tau deep down kite mmg rasa cmtu
dan tima kasih jugak sbb sy bleh jadi salah satu reason korg happy

hope smpai bile2 kite bole jadi cmni,
sy selalu duk byg, even bile kite dh ade anak2 pon, kite tetap bergosip, kite tetap mak jemah haha
mlm ni mmg mlm yg emotional, ni semua sbb syakini haha

kepada gelprenzz, syg korg sesangat *cheezy kan, trima jelah jgn byk songeh haha

Sad but it truth

assalamualaikum ;)


Here i am, almost 4 in the morning still cant sleep, mybe bcoz im struggling not to sleep for this past two days, even dh tido lepas mghrib then suddenly tersedar tanpa alarm tgh2 mlm,
hebat btul penangan thesis ni,

and jari ni dh sebati kot ngan keyboard laptop ni, smpai ayat yg sy nk karang ni pon sy rasa nk double spacing kan haha funny isnt it  ^_^
 kalau la time study week cmni punye attitude confirm dekan setiap sem

nothing to say exactly but juz bosan plak bile dh ciap thesis nih, feel like empty
tgh dok godek2 laptop and melayan prasaan
then suddenly  i found this song "in my arm by plump"- nak tau pi dgr kat utube

lyrics:

your baby blues,
so full of wonder,
your curly ques,
your contagious smile,
and as i watch,
you start to grow up,
all i can do,
is hold you tight,
knowing,
clouds will rage in,
storms will race in,
but you will be safe in my arms,
rains will pour down,
waves will crash all around,
but you will be safe in my arms,

story books,
are full of fairy tales,
of kings and queens,
and the bluest skies,
my heart is torn,
just in knowing,
you'll someday see,
the truth from lies,
when the,
clouds will rage in,
storms will race in,
but you will be safe in my arms,
rains will pour down,
waves will crash all around,
but you will be safe in my arms,

castle, they might crumble,
dreams may not come true,
but you never all alone,
cause i will always,
always love you,
hey i, hey i,
when the,
clouds will rage in,
storms will race in,
but you will be safe in my arms,
rains will pour down,
waves will crash all around,
but you will be safe in my arms,

lagu ni mcm ibu tujukan tuk anak2 dia,
ke mana pon hala tuju dia tetap ade tuk kite kan, sedih (rindu dekat ma sebenarnye haha)
and when we grow up, we know that everything is not that easy to get
we're not a child anymore

wah wah ati matured sgt haha, err umur dh nk masuk 24, dh nk grad dh pon kann,
bile sebut sebut pasal grad ni rasa sedih plak,

well, ke mana pon kite lepas ni, let today be the best in our memory :')



psst: crush will be crush, its not gonna change more than that hehe, simpan dalam hati jelah chewaah

if

Assalamualaikum,

now i keep thingking,
i'm afraid with the decision they will make,
afraid what if they made the wrong choices,
what if it make thing even worse,
what if thats is not happines,
we cannot ignore another side of them,
yeah now we can say anything, say it i can do this and that,
if that person really want that happen, he should do things properly even if it hard for them,
dont take the easy way out cause life is not an easy one,
my opinion is not important but i really love her,
i want all of us happy, i juz want her to be happy thats all,
this is my Doa, everyday, everytime
i dont ask for a mountain of money
i juz wish that every little thing is enough to make us happy

i'm juz a girl, and i know that everything that i wish for, i only can ask from Him

Between heart and the mind

assalamualaikum,

minggu yg sangat-sangat hectic, finally boleh la bernafas sket minggu ni,
TAPI,  besar tak tapi tu aha, meh nok oyak, mek klate tubik doh
manusia biasala kalau sehari tak complain mmg tak boleh hidup agaknye

biasala, bila dah habis segala test dan jugak 1st viva, terasa cam kosong jer,
yelah dalam seminggu tu ko dok push brain, jumpa sv, skali semua dah berakhir,
tiba-tiba dah tak ada ape nak buat, nak tengok cite pon cam takde soul gitu,
bukak fb bosan, twitter bosan, youtube bosan, nak tengok drama bosan, the voice yang ade adam levine tu pon tengok takde keinginan, tengok runningman pon takde hati nak gelak, last tak tau nak buat pe bukak la blogger yang dah berhabuk ni sementara menunggu nak pi dinner...but still tak tau nak karang ape-blank, so camni la jadinye

bile tgh sibuk, time tu la nak melayan cite, time tu la soul ade, over giler
pastu dok complain, banyak benda nak kena buat, itula inila
ini lah perangai cik atie kite ni

okay stop complaining,
ok sekarang nak cakap sal ape plak??
ahaaa, skrg ni sy tgh obses dgn lagu the scientist (nak tau sile google)
smpai kat mane2 pon dok humming lagu tu jer,
smpaikan time fire drill pon bleh plak dok humming lagu tu
macam addicted plak,
mesti rumate sy penat dok dengar suara yg sumbang ni
krik krik krik....haha bosannn

okeh, pasal inara, dpt berita dia dah ok dah, bleh gelak2 and mumbling ape ntah kat phone

ni time kena masuk air :'(

mase ni tgh tgk AF, sakit2 pon sempat lg

see, inara dah sihat, baru bangun tido

inara ni pelik, kalau org tak layan dia cakap, bising jer memanjang, bile bagi phone kat dia, tegur dia, terus senyap, macam automatically silent mode, penat pggl nama dia takde respon...last-last sembang ngan org lain skali bunyi suara dia, sakit hati kite ni tau
yg paling sedih, semua kumpul kat banting, almaklum lah skrg ni cuti skolah, tiap2 tahun mmg camni, selalu diri ini ditinggalkan :'(
nak join mmg tak dapatla

kalaulah ade pintu ajaib doraemon kan senang

p/s:  BOB (buat org bersalah), nak tukar maksud dia bleh tak?
       Buat
       Orang
       Benci
       ahaksss, XD

Hopeless

Assalamualaikum,

Trying to focus on the note but...
Feel like hopeless at the moment...
Ingatkan benda tu bleh settle ngan mudah last2 makin complicated,
2 minggu baru bleh ciap!
mmg ak duk senang lenang pon kat usm ni kan xde keje,
Rasa nak menangis tp mmg dh menangis dh pon
Dgn testnye presentation lg, proposal lg
How am i supposed to do that
Nak pinjam yg org punye, bknnye nak pakai seminit dua,
Skrg ni xtau nak mengadu kat sapa,
Nak bergantung harap dekat sapa,
Nak bgtau ma ngan abah?ak xnak susahkan diorg
Nak bgtau my sis n bro?entahla i cannot say a word
Kalau bleh pinjam, mmg dh lama ak pinjam
Nk balik rumah, byk benda nk kena pikir siyesly byk

Feel like hopeless

Ini hanyala luahan hati tuk tenangkan diri

P/s: sy harap laptop zali xkan jadi cam lappy sy